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August 15th, 2008 : dreamz!!!!@11

Jon Walker was laying on the floor, on his left side, with his back wedged up against a bookcase and this white MacBook open and in use in front of him. I looked at him and and he basically relented and lay there, signaling that it was okay for me to climb on top of him and make out with him. The second time this exact scenario happened, he moved in a much less-awkward (and ultimately more comfortable) position. After my alarm went off, I couldn’t get back into the dream but, as much as I love JWalk, I’m pretty sure his persona was embodying someone else I know who owns a white MacBook, and who I just happened to hug yesterday.

GAH!!!

I also found a picture of Joe Jonas that is probably from 2005 (age 15 or 16) where he is wearing an Underoath t-shirt, glasses, and this insanely goofy grin on his face. It validates my current crush just a little.

July 26th, 2008 : I hate coincidences!!!

Part A:
I first saw the video for “Cupid’s Chokehold” in February of 2007 and, as a direct result, became a fan of both Gym Class Heroes and Travis McCoy (it is a well-known fact among my friends and I that Travis is as close to my perfect crush as anyone can be). I always liked the video because I thought that the third girlfriend, with whom Travis’ character says with, was really pretty and that the two of them made a cute couple (as in, I could be that girl and I could find someone like Travis). Wednesday I went to warped tour and say Gym Class Heroes perform for the first time. Before it so unfortunately started to fucking POUR, Travis mentioned “his girl” and blah blah blah - now I know he has a girlfriend and I need to stop lusting after him. I was on Wikipedia just now, and found out that Travis is dating Katy Perry. Not only was Katy Perry a part of warped tour, she was also present in the “Cupid’s Chokehold” video, as Travis’ character’s third girlfriend.

Part B:
I’ve always know about Johnny Cupcakes - first from my old friend Nora, whose brother is in a hardcore/metal band and knows Johnny, and second from his symbol that seems to be everywhere. So, I’m on Johnny Cupcakes tonight and am looking through the store and find this picture. This boy’s name is Travis Alexander, better known to the world as one of the guitarists for the band Therefore I Am. I know of Travis a different way, though. In March of 2006, my friends Meaghan and Nicole and I decided to participate in senior skip day and go into Boston. We ended up on Newbury Street and, before we went home, stopped in Urban Outfitters. This superbly gorgeous boy was working in the men’s department, folding shirts, and we decided to be cute seventeen-year-olds and giggle a lot as we seruptitiously fawned over him from afar. On the train ride home, we decided to name him and decided on Travis, because that was (and still is) our favorite male name.

Over the summer, she started to Myspace and Facebook stalk students from Suffolk University, because that is where she was going to school. She found this boy who was really, very attractive and he turned out to be Travis (I know!!! Really?!). His name was really Travis! He was going to attend Suffolk! He was still so hot! I used to (creepily) regularly check his Myspace, and figured out that he was working at Urban Outfitters in order to pay rent, and not really going to school as he pursued a career in music with Therefore I Am. So, one day in December, I’m walking down Newbury Street with my sutiemate and see Travis walking the other way. You know when you build something up in your brain and then it happens and you start to freak out because you’re so excited and nothing you’ve done could have every prepared you for it?

He was sort of like that (while looking like this). Not to blow something so small out of proportion, but I had built this boy I had never formally met up in my mind because he was so handsome and so much my type out of everyone I had met up to that point. It was like he was a celebrity in a way - but my suitemate didn’t understand why I was semi-freaking out (OMG Travis!) and, by that point, Nicole didn’t really care. I haven’t seen him since because he left Urban Outfitters to most likely persue music - which makes seeing him on the Johnny Cupcakes’ website so funny. He’s sort of famous because of Therefore I Am, he’s obviously friends with Johnny, and I feel so fucking special because I knew of Travis before now and both Johnny Cupcakes and Therefore I Am are local to Boston.

…except instead of being in the know, I’m still just some weird girl who likes to poke around on the web and thinks she knows, but doesn’t really know, anyone or anything.

July 17th, 2008 :

I promise I will update the content and layout of andhearts.org by the end of July, if not sooner. You know that (extremely stupid) tax refund Bush is giving out to jump-start the economy? I’m actually following his advice and putting it in my bank account to pay for the new DSLR I want.

Funny, right?

June 23rd, 2008 : lightbulb!

I lot of the people I envy right now are young and successful. They might have more talent than I do, but that doesn’t mean I can’t put myself out there and try. Actually, honest to goodness, take the first step and, in all probability, fail. I want to work with music or books or films. I want to work for myself. I want to earn a living and still be happy. Why do I have to wait around for something to come to me? I don’t. I had ideas to turn andhearts.org into some sort of Rachel extravaganza, but I don’t think “andhearts” is a good enough name to stick in people’s minds and make them understand who the hell I am and what the hell I’m doing. And it’s rather personal, right? So I plan on buying a domain that reflects the new me. I’ll let you all know how it goes!

June 15th, 2008 : Updates, pt. 1

As stated previously, I want to use ah.org as a central base station for my various artistic purposes. This means getting rid of my blog and moving everything over to my LiveJournal account. My older archives will follow, as well as a content and design overhaul. Stay tuned!

June 7th, 2008 : !

New layout. I was reading the Rolling Stone article on Panic at the Disco from a year ago and I found this quote funny. As in, really funny. And dirty. Naughty dirty coming from Brendon’s mouth. In the end? Very hot.